Justine 淑女的眼泪 Chapter 30

"Yes."

 

"Ah, I swear to you in the name of all I hold most holy, in the name of the God Who makes me to breathe and Whom only I adore... I vow¹ to you I will either die in the undertaking² or destroy these infamies³... will you promise me the same?"

 

"Do not doubt it," Omphale replied, "but be certain of these promises' futility⁴; others more embittered⁵ than you, stauncher, no less resolute⁶ and not so scrupulous⁷, in a word, friends who would have shed their last drop of blood for us, have not kept identical vows⁸; and so, dear Therese, and so allow my cruel experience to consider ours equally vain and to count upon them no more."

 

"And the monks¹⁰," I said, "do they also vary, do new ones often come here?"

 

"No," answered Omphale, "Antonin has been here ten years, Clement¹¹ eighteen, Jerome thirty, Severino twenty-five. The superior was born in Italy, he is closely allied¹² to the Pope with whom he is in intimate contact; only since his arrival have the so-called miracles of the Virgin¹³ assured the monastery¹⁴'s reputation and prevented scandalmongers from observing too closely what takes place here; but when he came the house was already furnished as presently you see it to be; it has subsisted¹⁶ in the same style and upon this footing for above a century, and all the superiors who have governed it have perpetuated¹⁷ a system which so amicably¹⁸ smiles upon their pleasures. Severino, the most libertine¹⁹ man of our times, has only installed himself here in order to lead a life consonant²⁰ with his tastes. He intends to maintain this abbey's secret privileges as long as he possibly can. We belong to the diocese of Auxerre, but whether or not the bishop²¹ is informed, we never see him, never does he set foot in the monastery: generally speaking, very few outsiders come here except toward the time of the festival which is that of Notre Dame²² d'Aout; according to the monks, ten persons do not arrive at this house over the period of a twelvemonth; however, it is very likely that when strangers do present themselves, the superior takes care to receive them with hospitality; by appearances of religion and austerity he imposes upon them, they go away content, the monastery is eulogized, and thus these villains²⁴' impunity²⁵ is established upon the people's good faith and the credulity of the devout²⁶."

 

Omphale had scarcely concluded her instruction when nine o'clock tolled²⁷; the superintendent²⁸ called us to come quickly, and the Officer of the Day did indeed enter. 'Twas Antonin; according to custom, we drew ourselves up in a line. He cast a rapid glance upon the group, counted us, and sat down; then, one by one, we went forward and lifted our skirts, on the one side as high as the navel, on the other up to the middle of the back. Antonin greeted the homage²⁹ with the blase³⁰ unconcern of satiety³¹; then, clapping an eye upon me, he asked how I liked this newest of my adventures. Getting no response but tears, "She'll manage," he said with a laugh; "in all of France there's not a single house where girls are finished as nicely as they are in this." From the superintendent's hands he took the list of girls who had misbehaved, then, addressing himself to me again, he caused me to shudder³³; each gesture, each movement which seemed to oblige me to submit myself to these libertines³⁴ was for me as a sentence of death. Antonin commanded me to sit on the edge of a bed and when I was in this posture³⁵ he bade the superintendent uncover my breast and raise my skirt to above my waist; he himself spread my legs as far apart as possible, he seats himself before this prospect³⁶, one of my companions comes and takes up the same pose on top of me in such a way that it is the altar of generation instead of my visage which is offered to Antonin; with these charms raised to the level of his mouth he readies himself for pleasure. A third girl, kneeling before him, begins to excite him with her hands, and a fourth, completely naked, with her fingers indicates where he must strike my body. Gradually, this girl begins to arouse me and what she does to me Antonin does as well, with both his hands, to two other girls on his left and right. One cannot imagine the language, the obscene speeches by which that debauchee stimulates³⁸ himself; at last he is in the state he desires, he is led to me, but everyone follows him, moves with him, endeavors to inflame³⁹ him yet further while he takes his pleasure; his naked hind⁴⁰ parts are exposed, Omphale takes possession of them and neglects nothing in order to irritate him: rubbings, kisses, pollutions, she employs them all; completely afire, Antonin leaps toward me.... "I wish to stuff her this time," he says, beside himself.... These moral deviations⁴¹ determine the physical. Antonin, who has the habit of uttering terrible cries during the final instants of drunkenness, emits dreadful ones; everyone surrounds, everyone serves him, everyone labors⁴³ to enrich his ecstasy⁴⁴, and the libertine attains⁴⁵ it in the midst of the most bizarre episodes of luxury and depravation.

 

These groupings were frequent; for when a monk⁹ indulged in whatever form of pleasure, all the girls regularly surrounded him in order to fire all his parts' sensations, that voluptuousness⁴⁶ might, if one may be forgiven the expression, more surely penetrate⁴⁷ into him through every pore.

 

Antonin left, breakfast was brought in; my companions forced me to eat, I did so to please them. We had not quite finished when the superior entered: seeing us still at table, he dispensed⁴⁸ us from ceremonies which were to have been identical with those we had just executed for Antonin. "We must give a thought to dressing³² her," said he, looking at me; and then he opened a wardrobe and threw upon my bed several garments of the color appropriate to my class, and several bundles of linen⁴⁹ as well.

 

"Try that on," he said, "and give me what belongs to you."

 

I donned the new clothes and surrendered my old; but, in anticipation⁵⁰ of having to give them up, I had, during the night, prudently⁵¹ removed my money from my pockets and had concealed⁵² it in my hair. With each article of clothing I took off, Severino's ardent⁵³ stare fell upon the feature newly exposed, and his hands wandered to it at once. At length, when I was half-naked, the monk seized me, put me in the position favorable to his pleasure, that is to say, in the one exactly opposite to the attitude Antonin had made me assume; I wish to ask him to spare me, but spying the fury already kindled⁵⁴ in his eyes, I decide the obedient is the safer way; I take my place, the others form a ring around me, Severino is able to see nothing but a multitude of those obscene altars in which he delights; his hands converge⁵⁵ upon mine, his mouth fastens upon it, his eyes devour⁵⁶ it... he is at the summit of pleasure.

 

With your approval, Madame, said the beautiful Therese, I shall limit myself to a foreshortened account of the first month I spent in that monastery, that is, I will confine myself to the period's principal anecdotes⁵⁷; the rest would be pure repetition; the monotony of that sojourn⁵⁸ would make my recital⁵⁹ tedious; immediately afterward⁶⁰, I should, it seems to me, move on to the events which finally produced my emergence⁶¹ from this ghastly sewer⁶².

 

I did not attend supper that first day; I had simply been selected to pass the night with Dom Clement. In accordance with custom, I was outside his cell some few minutes before he was expected to return to it; the jailer opened the door, then locked it when I had gone in.

 

Clement arrives as warm with wine as lust⁶³, he is followed by the twenty-six year-old girl who, at the time was officiating as his watch; previously⁶⁴ informed of what I am to do, I fall to my knees as soon as I hear him coming; he nears me, considers me in my humbled⁶⁵ posture, then commands me to rise and kiss him upon the mouth; he savors⁶⁶ the kiss for several moments and imparts to it all the expression... all the amplitude⁶⁷ one could possibly conceive. Meanwhile, Armande, as his thrall⁶⁸ was named, undresses me by stages; when the lower part of the loins, with which she had begun, is exposed, she bids me turn around and display to her uncle the area his tastes cherish. Clement examines it, feels it, then, reposing⁶⁹ himself in an armchair, orders me to bring it close so that he can kiss it; Armande is upon her knees, rousing him with her mouth, Clement places his at the sanctuary⁷⁰ of the temple I present to him and his tongue strays into the path situate at its center; his hands fasten upon the corresponding altar in Armande but, as the clothing the girl is still wearing impedes⁷¹ him, he commands her to be rid of it, this is soon done, and the docile⁷² creature returns to her uncle to take up a position in which, while exciting him with only the hand, she finds herself better within reach of Clement's. The impure⁷³ monk uninterruptedly occupied with me in like fashion, then tells me to give the largest possible vent¹⁵ to whatever winds may be hovering⁷⁴ in my bowels⁷⁵, and these I am to direct into his mouth; this eccentricity⁷⁶ struck me as revolting, but I was at the time far from perfect acquaintance with all the irregularities of debauch³⁷: I obey and straightway feel the effect of this intemperance⁷⁷. More excited, the monk becomes more impassioned: he suddenly applies bites to six different places upon the fleshy globes I have put at his disposal; I emit a cry and start forward involuntarily, whereat he stands, advances toward me, rage blazing in his eyes, and demands whether I know what I am risking by unsettling him.... I make a thousand apologies, he grasps the corset still about my torso, rips it away, and my blouse too, in less time than it takes to tell.... Ferociously⁷⁸ he seizes my breasts, spouting⁷⁹ invectives as he squeezes, wrings⁸⁰, crushes them; Armande undresses him, and there we are, all three of us, naked. Upon Armande his attention comes to bear for a moment: he deals her savage⁸¹ blows with his fists; kisses her mouth; nibbles⁸² her tongue and lips, she screams; pain now and again sends the girl into uncontrollable gales⁸³ of weeping; he has her stand upon a chair and extracts from her just what he desired from me. Armande satisfies him, with one hand I excite him, and, during this luxury, I whip him gently with the other, he also bites Armande, but she holds herself somehow in check, not daring to stir a hair. The monster's tooth-marks are soon printed upon the lovely girl's flesh; they are to be seen in a number of places; brusquely wheeling upon me: "Therese," he says, "you are going to suffer cruelly" he had no need to tell me so, for his eyes declared it but too emphatically. "You are going to be lashed⁸⁴ everywhere," he continues, "everywhere, without exception," and as he spoke⁸⁵ he again laid hands upon my breasts and mauled them brutally⁸⁶, he bruised⁸⁷ their extremities⁸⁸ with his fingertips and occasioned me very sharp pain; I dared not say a word for fear of irritating him yet more, but sweat bathed my forehead and, willy-nilly, my eyes filled with tears; he turns me about, makes me kneel on the edge of a chair upon whose back I must keep my hands without removing them for a single instant; he promises to inflict⁸⁹ the gravest penalties upon me if I lift them; seeing me ready and well within range, he orders Armande to fetch him some birch rods, she presents him with a handful, slender and long; Clement snatches them, and recommending that I not stir, he opens with a score of stripes upon my shoulders and the small of my back; he leaves me for an instant, returns to Armande, brings her back, she too is made to kneel upon a chair six feet from where I am; he declares he is going to flog us simultaneously⁹⁰ and the first of the two to release her grip, utter a cry, or shed a tear will be exposed on the spot to whatever torture he is pleased to inflict: he bestows⁹¹ the same number of strokes upon Armande he has just given me, and positively⁹² upon the identical places, he returns to me, kisses everything he has just left off molesting⁹³, and raising his sticks, says to me, "Steady, little slut, you are going to be used like the last of the damned." Whereupon I receive fifty strokes, all of them directed between the region bordered by the shoulders and the small of the back. He dashes to my comrade and treats her likewise: we pronounce not a word; nothing may be heard but a few stifled⁹⁴ groans⁹⁵, we have enough strength to hold back our tears. There was no indication as to what degree the monk's passions were inflamed⁹⁶; he periodically excited himself briskly, but nothing rose. Returning now to me, he spent a moment eyeing those two fatty globes then still intact but about to undergo torture in their turn; he handled them, he could not prevent himself from prying⁹⁷ them apart, tickling⁹⁸ them, kissing them another thousand times. "Well," said he, "be courageous⁹⁹..." and a hail of blows descended¹⁰⁰ upon these masses, lacerating them to the thighs¹⁰². Extremely animated¹⁰³ by the starts, the leaps, the grinding of teeth, the contortions¹⁰⁴ the pain drew from me, examining them, battening upon them rapturously, he comes and expresses, upon my mouth which he kisses with fervor¹⁰⁵, the sensations agitating¹⁰⁶ him.... "This girl entertains me," he cries, "I have never flogged another with as much pleasure," and he goes back to his niece whom he treats with the same barbarity; there remained the space between the upper thigh¹⁰¹ and the calves¹⁰⁷ and this he struck with identical vehemence¹⁰⁸: first the one of us, then the other. "Ha !" he said, now approaching me, "let's change hands and visit this place here"; now wielding¹⁰⁹ a cat-o'-nine-tails he gives me twenty cuts from the middle of my belly¹¹⁰ to the bottom of my thighs; then wrenching¹¹¹ them apart, he slashed¹¹² at the interior of the lair¹¹³ my position bares to his whip. "There it is," says he, "the bird I am going to pluck": several thongs¹¹⁴ having, through the precautions he had taken, penetrated¹¹⁵ very deep, I could not suppress my screams. "Well, well!" said the villain²³, "I must have found the sensitive area at last; steady there, calm yourself, we'll visit it a little more thoroughly"; however, his niece is put in the same posture and treated in the same manner; once again he reaches the most delicate region of a woman's body; but whether through habit, or courage, or dread⁴² of incurring¹¹⁶ treatment yet worse, she has enough strength to master herself, and about her nothing is visible beyond a few shivers and spasmodic twitchings. However, there was by now a slight change in the libertine's physical aspect, and although things were still lacking in substance, thanks to strokings and shakings a gradual improvement was being registered.

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