Justine 淑女的眼泪 Chapter 6

Monsieur Du Harpin let more than a month drift by, that is to say, he waited until the end of my second year with him, and waited without showing the least hint of resentment¹ at the refusal I had given him, when one evening, having just retired² to my room to taste a few hours of repose³, I suddenly heard my door burst opens and there, not without terror, I saw Monsieur du Harpin and four soldiers of the watch standing⁴ by my bed. "Perform your duty, Sirrah," said he to the men of the law, "this wretch⁵ has stolen from me a diamond worth a thousand crowns, you will find it in her chamber⁶ or upon her person, the fact is certain."

 

"I have robbed you, Monsieur!" said I, sore troubled and springing from my bed, "I! Great Heaven! Who knows better than you the contrary to be true! Who should be more deeply aware than you to what point I loathe⁷ robbery and to what degree it is unthinkable I could have committed it." But du Harpin made a great uproar⁸ to drown out my words; he continued to order perquisitions, and the miserable⁹ ring was discovered in my mattress¹⁰. To evidence of this strength there was nothing to reply; I was seized instantly, pinioned¹¹, and led to prison without being able to prevail upon the authorities to listen to one word in my favor.

 

The trial of an unfortunate creature who has neither influence nor protection is conducted with dispatch in a land where virtue¹² is thought incompatible¹³ with misery¹⁴, where poverty is enough to convict the accused; there, an unjust prepossession causes it to be supposed that he who ought to have committed a crime did indeed commit it; sentiments are proportioned according to the guilty one's estate; and when once gold or titles are wanting to establish his innocence¹⁵, the impossibility that he be innocent then appears self-evident.

 

( o ages yet to come ! You shall no longer be witness to these horrors and infamies¹⁶ abounding¹⁷!)

 

I defended myself, it did no good, in vain I furnished the best material to the lawyer whom a protocol¹⁸ of form required be given me for an instant or two; my employer accused me, the diamond had been discovered in my room; it was plain I had stolen it. When I wished to describe Monsieur du Harpin's awful traffic and prove that the misfortune that had struck me was naught¹⁹ but the fruit of his vengeance²⁰ and the consequence of his eagerness to be rid of a creature who, through possession of his secret, had become his master, these pleadings were interpreted as so many recriminations, and I was informed that for twenty years Monsieur du Harpin had been known as a man of integrity, incapable²¹ of such a horror. I was transferred to the Conciergerie, where I saw myself upon the brink²² of having to pay with my life for having refused to participate in a crime; I was shortly to perish; only a new misdeed could save me: Providence²³ willed that Crime serve at least once as an aegis²⁴ unto Virtue, that crime might preserve it from the abyss which is some-day going to engulf²⁵ judges together with their imbecility.

 

I had about me a woman, probably forty years old, as celebrated²⁶ for her beauty as for the variety and number of her villainies; she was called Dubois and, like the unlucky Therese, was on the eve of paying the capital penalty, but as to the exact form of it the judges were yet mightily²⁷ perplexed²⁸: having rendered herself guilty of every imaginable crime, they found themselves virtually obliged to invent a new torture for her, or to expose her to one whence we ordinarily exempt²⁹ our sex. This woman had become interested in me, criminally interested without doubt, since the basis of her feelings, as I learned afterward³⁰, was her extreme desire to make a proselyte of me.

 

Only two days from the time set for our execution, Dubois came to me; it was at night. She told me not to lie down to sleep, but to stay near her side. Without attracting attention, we moved as close as we could to the prison door. "Between seven and eight," she said, "the Conciergerie will catch fire, I have seen to it; no question about it, many people will be burned; it doesn't matter, Therese," the evil creature went on, "the fate of others must always be as nothing to us when our own lives are at stake; well, we are going to escape here, of that you can be sure; four men my confederates will join us and I guarantee you we will be free."

 

I have told you, Madame, that the hand of God which had just punished my innocence, employed crime to protect me; the fire began, it spread, the blaze was horrible, twenty-one persons were consumed, but we made a successful sally. The same day we reached the cottage of a poacher, an intimate friend of our band who dwelt in the forest of Bondy.

 

"There you are, Therese," Dubois says to me, "free. You may now choose the kind of life you wish, but were I to have any advice to give you, it would be to renounce³¹ the practice of virtue which, as you have noticed, is the courting of disaster; a misplaced delicacy³² led you to the foot of the scaffold, an appalling³³ crime rescued you from it; have a look about and see how useful are good deeds in this world, and whether it is really worth the trouble immolating³⁴ yourself for them. Therese, you are young and attractive, heed³⁵ me, and in two years I'll have led you to a fortune; but don't suppose I am going to guide you there along the paths of virtue: when one wants to get on, my dear girl, one must stop at nothing; decide, then, we have no security in this cottage, we've got to leave in a few hours."

 

"Oh Madame," I said to my benefactress, "I am greatly indebted to you, and am far from wishing to disown my obligations; you saved my life; in my view, 'tis frightful³⁶ the thing was achieved through a crime and, believe me, had I been the one charged to commit it, I should have preferred a thousand deaths to the anguish³⁷ of participating in it; I am aware of all the dangers I risk in trusting myself to the honest sentiments which will always remain in my heart; but whatever be the thorns of virtue, Madame, I prefer them unhesitatingly and always to the perilous³⁸ favors which are crime's accompaniment. There are religious principles within me which, may it please Heaven, will never desert me; if Providence renders difficult my career in life, 'tis in order to compensate³⁹ me in a better world. That hope is my consolation⁴⁰, it sweetens my griefs, it soothes⁴¹ me in my sufferings, it fortifies⁴² me in distress⁴³, and causes me confidently to face all the ills it pleases God to visit upon me. That joy should straightway be extinguished in my soul were I perchance to besmirch⁴⁴ it with crime, and together with the fear of chastisements in this world I should have the painful anticipation⁴⁵ of torments⁴⁶ in the next, which would not for one instant procure⁴⁷ me the tranquillity⁴⁸ I thirst after."

 

"Those are absurd doctrines⁴⁹ which will have you on the dung heap in no time, my girl," said Dubois with a frown; "believe me: forget God's justice, His future punishments and rewards, the lot of those platitudes⁵⁰ lead us nowhere but to death from starvation. O Therese, the callousness⁵¹ of the Rich legitimates⁵² the bad conduct of the Poor; let them open their purse to our needs, let humaneness⁵³ reign⁵⁴ in their hearts and virtues⁵⁵ will take root in ours; but as long as our misfortune, our patient endurance of it, our good faith, our abjection⁵⁶ only serves to double the weight of our chains, our crimes will be their doing, and we will be fools indeed to abstain⁵⁷ from them when they can lessen⁵⁸ the yoke⁵⁹ wherewith their cruelty bears us down. Nature has caused us all to be equals born, Therese; if fate is pleased to upset the primary scheme of the general law, it is up to us to correct its caprices and through our skill to repair the usurpations of the strongest. I love to hear these rich ones, these titled ones, these magistrates⁶⁰ and these priests, I love to see them preach virtue to us. It is not very difficult to forswear theft when one has three or four times what one needs to live; it is not very necessary to plot murder when one is surrounded by nothing but adulators and thralls⁶¹ unto whom one's will is law; nor is it very hard to be temperate⁶² and sober when one has the most succulent dainties constantly within one's reach; they can well contrive⁶³ to be sincere when there is never any apparent advantage in falsehood... But we, Therese, we whom the barbaric Providence you are mad enough to idolize, has condemned⁶⁴ to slink in the dust of humiliation⁶⁵ as doth the serpent in grass, we who are beheld⁶⁶ with disdain⁶⁷ only because we are poor, who are tyrannized because we are weak; we, who must quench⁶⁸ our thirst with gall⁶⁹ and who, wherever we go, tread on the thistle always, you would have us shun⁷⁰ crime when its hand alone opens up unto us the door to life, maintains us in it, and is our only protection when our life is threatened; you would have it that, degraded and in perpetual abjection, while this class dominating us has to itself all the blessings⁷¹ of fortune, we reserve for ourselves naught but pain, beatings, suffering, nothing but want and tears, brandings and the gibbet. No, no, Therese, no; either this Providence you reverence⁷² is made only for our scorn, or the world we see about us is not at all what Providence would have it. Become better acquainted with your Providence, my child, and be convinced that as soon as it places us in a situation where evil becomes necessary, and while at the same time it leaves us the possibility of doing it, this evil harmonizes quite as well with its decrees as does good, and Providence gains as much by the one as by the other; the state in which she has created us is equality: he who disturbs is no more guilty than he who seeks to re-establish the balance; both act in accordance with received impulses, both have to obey those impulses and enjoy them."

 

I must confess that if ever I was shaken it was by this clever woman's seductions; but a yet stronger voice, that of my heart to which I gave heed, combatted her sophistries⁷³; I declared to Dubois that I was determined⁷⁴ never to allow myself to be corrupted⁷⁵. "Very well!" she replied, "become what you wish, I abandon you to your sorry fate; but if ever you get yourself hanged, which is an end you cannot avoid, thanks to the fatality⁷⁶ which inevitably⁷⁷ saves the criminal by sacrificing the virtuous⁷⁸, at least remember before dying never to mention us."

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